Transitions with uncertainty

Pregnancy and bleeding, selling a home in the midst of a financial world crisis, and finding a new home for a family of 4. Trying to stay relaxed and take care of oneself during all this is truly a difficult task. I am finding there to be no time to think or be creative. I have not taken any time to feed my soul, and I know this is something I NEED!!! Getting caught up in all of this chaos all while raising a 2 year old I have become lost. Where am I?  I need to find myself again and come back into my self. Recognition is the first thing, and now I must do. So...I am going to make a pact with myself to find at least one thing a day that feeds me. All ideas are welcome. And just a reminder to myself how blessed and grateful I am for all the wonderful things I do have...

I am in love...

I got the canon eos rebel xsi and it is beautiful. Here are a fewpics out of many...

Boys will be boys...

Sometimes it is nice to have a little support, understanding, and re grounding to know you are not insane. Raising kids is not an easy job, but it is also not a chore and it doesn't need to be taken so serious all the time. I sometimes find myself stuck in a rut where I feel like everything is going wrong, and I feel like I just can't do it anymore. Gosh is this normal, but it also doesn't mean it is true. As Ayden goes through these phases of being his age and gender I forget he is doing what he should be doing. I just need to find ways to not look at it as if he is doing this to me. This is hard...very hard. Especially when I haven't had a good night sleep, or I haven't had any space to myself, or my new $2K laptop has been destroyed due to Ayden spilling coffee all over it, or Ayden has smashed a toy over my friends 8 month old...oh the list could go on forever. I could become trapped in a dark cycle believing my son is possessed, and I can label him with so many disorders that I see coming down the road...this is where being a therapist I need to be careful. So...how do I pull myself away from all my craziness?? Therapy, good books on the topic, and friends. Without these things I would be a mess! I am truly grateful that I allow myself to be open to these resources, and that they are there for me. These past couple of days have been challenging, but in a positive and fun way. I look at Ayden and am blown away with who he is. What a beautiful being that was once not even the size of a peanut. I am simply left breathless!

p.s. for those of you with boys who need some reassurance or some pointers here is a book I found to be helpful...