Sometimes it is nice to have a little support, understanding, and re grounding to know you are not insane. Raising kids is not an easy job, but it is also not a chore and it doesn't need to be taken so serious all the time. I sometimes find myself stuck in a rut where I feel like everything is going wrong, and I feel like I just can't do it anymore. Gosh is this normal, but it also doesn't mean it is true. As Ayden goes through these phases of being his age and gender I forget he is doing what he should be doing. I just need to find ways to not look at it as if he is doing this to me. This is hard...very hard. Especially when I haven't had a good night sleep, or I haven't had any space to myself, or my new $2K laptop has been destroyed due to Ayden spilling coffee all over it, or Ayden has smashed a toy over my friends 8 month old...oh the list could go on forever. I could become trapped in a dark cycle believing my son is possessed, and I can label him with so many disorders that I see coming down the road...this is where being a therapist I need to be careful. So...how do I pull myself away from all my craziness?? Therapy, good books on the topic, and friends. Without these things I would be a mess! I am truly grateful that I allow myself to be open to these resources, and that they are there for me. These past couple of days have been challenging, but in a positive and fun way. I look at Ayden and am blown away with who he is. What a beautiful being that was once not even the size of a peanut. I am simply left breathless!
p.s. for those of you with boys who need some reassurance or some pointers here is a book I found to be helpful...

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Oh wow, Suzanne. This makes me really want to talk to you when there are no kids around. Was this 8 month old Markos? I have a feeling it was!! I am missing you guys right now.
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