Going Inwards

I have been finding myself really looking inwards these days. Mostly due to the change in seasons. As it gets colder I am bound to be indoors more, the darkness is falling earlier, and I am doing less socializing due to the previous transitions. As I am turning inwards I am looking at me, my relationship to others, and where my journey is to lead me next. I find myself becoming overwhelmed and anxious as to where my path is leading these days, yet when I begin to meditate on this I find it best to just be. Allow the flow to happen rather then make it happen. How many times have I heard or read this? Is it finally sinking in? Are those seeds that were planted starting to sprout? A friend of mine mentioned to me the practice of Kabbalah a while back. At the time I was so consumed with my newborn and managing the 2 boys I could not focus on anything else. When my husband came home the other night to tell me about Gwyneth Paltrow's blog, goop, I quickly became hooked. And then I came upon a couple of interesting articles with a kabbalist's perspective, and I found myself very intrigued. And there it was. May be where my path is leading me, maybe not. We shall see. It is funny how life just takes you where it needs to.